It sounds like you have some kinda anxiety disorder like me, unfortunately I have 3 types: Generalized, Social and Panic. I lived with paranoia and timidness in social situation for all my life up til about 5 years ago when I finally realized after doing much personal research on my symptoms that I might have an anxiety disorder, after asking my family doctor about these things and my research that i had three types. So he but me on xanax with the obligatory anti-depressants that most doctors want to put you on anyway. I dont take the SSRI's but the xanax has forever changed my quality of life and I suggest you talk to your doctor and discuss your symptoms. nomad bloodbath